I recently spoke briefly on the pain and drama I endured in past relationships and how I worked towards healing myself. Now I know the reason I went through what I went through because of 1st the capability to be able to come out of each situation and still continue to spread positive energy with a story to tell. The Divine doesn’t put anything on you can’t carry and conquer! Another reason was because what I had to offer each person I was with. I was doing tantra even in the years I knew nothing of tantra…now of course looking at my previous posts I did not know how to stay strong and flourish in those situations which caused difficult times for me, but I was doing spiritual work all the same. I enjoy laughing, chatting, dancing, politicn and motivating people it feels wonderful. I probably should have been an actress long time ago at least in theater that is. Haha nah…. Let’s go a little deeper into this…So who ever I was with man, woman or just close friends I offered this tantra that would vibrate the moment and we would dance spiritually for as long as the Divine saw fit. The relationship would go on to the point where there wasn’t an open door for change. Where either me or the other person couldn’t or wouldn’t evolve any further. At this point then it was time to move on. Evolution does cause some discomfort sometimes even pain so of course most people don’t like that ish lol So if what I showed or how I pushed wasn’t understood or accepted they would become upset with me and that would cause arguments. Some also would become distant and not just distant to pounder and return but distant in a way that I would be pushed away. Now of course you know these reactions don’t work well for happy relationships. So eventually we started to dislike one another and then what we built comes tumbling down.
OK Ok just so you don’t think I was this O so conscious guru haha I was not it’s just something that just happens I push people’s limits as well as motivate them and in the mean time give them sweet delicious intimacy(not always sexual by the way so get your head out of the clouds lol). Now of course relationships are a two way street in evolution so I was getting class time too sometimes my teachers were real sweet and sometimes they were treacherous either way it went I had something to learn too. Some I learned a lot from right then and some not till years later. All this to say every single one of us are tantra teachers by nature just because truth is every relationship is for our spiritual growth. …now the question is are we going to get the lessons or not, but that’s a whole nutter story.
OK so before I close this blog out let’s talk about tantra a bit which I altered the term to best fit me my her story and the work I do. I now call it sensual awakening sensual – not just related to sexual activity but has to do with your 6+ senses the five that we all know so well;
•sight (using our ocular vision)
And then there is our 6 sense being able to go beyond just the basic senses and “feel” instead of just touch… “view” instead of just see and so on. So sensual awakening to me is using these senses for you and others evolution…and becoming aware of the process so you can practice intentionally to help others. This is me elaborating on my connections with people and of course it wasn’t just “danger danger will robinson” No not at all it was growth.Hey had so much fun sharing today if you have something you have been through man O man I probably have too. Lol so please drop me a line and I will tell my story.